A Year Comes and Goes

A year seems like a long time, but when you have kids it really does FLY by. As I am both emotionally and logistically planning for Evelyn to move onto preschool in September, I cant stop myself from thinking about her still being such a baby in my eyes. I know she is 2 1/2 and that she is walking, talking and playing like a "little girl" but she is my baby and I want to do everything I can to protect her from the world. I cant believe she will be away from me for 4 hours a day and possibly even be getting on a big yellow school bus. I am not convinced I can put her on a bus, but maybe I will come around when September hits. Just a year ago Evie was only crawling for God's sake!!! I just cant imagine letting her out there in that world all alone without me by her side.

I recently saw a movie with some girlfriends that really helped to put things into perspective for me. Monica and David is a documentary about an adult couple that both have Down Syndrome... their life, their love, their family, and most importantly (at least to me) their independence. It is actually premiering on HBO coming in October, so please check it out. Anyways, I found myself really doing some soul searching after I saw this film, mostly about letting Evelyn experience life, the way she wants to do it. I know she is only 2 and that she still requires all my love and guidance and support at her age, but I really want to do my best to set her free when the time comes. I know she can do it, and as her Mom, its my duty to really let her live. I just need to keep reminding myself that she is a strong little girl and she knows what she wants- that will serve her well in this world and she will without a doubt reach her dreams.